Just a Ramble
Just rambling here. This is me being consistent with posting and thanks to a trusted friend she’s been on top of me about it. This is also me honoring her efforts and I thank the Lord for her 💜
These past few weeks have been quite heavy. The Lord has been really working on my heart and ministering to me about various areas of my life.
Mainly my heart and the concerns of it.
-Family
-Reconciliation
-Grieving
-New Seasons
-Purpose
-Obedience
I wish I could say there was something specific I could really focus on but there isn’t. God was bussing me upside my head with a lot to say the least. I’ve been having dreams about people in my life.
It has felt like a test honestly because I just got done reading and studying a bit of the book of James. The Lord is like… “You finna be a doer of the word or wassup?”
Yessir I am!
I went on this amazing hike up a mountain here, where I live and I met a young man on top of that mountain who I’m sure was in need of the love of the Lord. I shared the gospel with him and offered him some prayer and meaningful conversation in hopes of him finding some peace in God. The journey up the mountain was extremely rewarding in itself to be honest. I believe in divine connections forsure and that was one of them.
I had my babies with me and I had to carry my daughter in hand up there. It wasn’t bad but my arms definitely paid the price for it the next day. It was still so worth it.
It was about 2 and a half miles up and the same distance going back down so 4 and some change all together. I wasn’t at all prepared I hadn’t even brung any water but thank God I was okay. There’s one thing that stood out the most to me.
There was a small blue cross with a number on it around every corner as you get closer to the top.
Isn’t that just like Jesus to remind us of the cross around every trial we experience in our lives to remind and encourage us in His sacrifice for us? It’s like you get so caught up in the journey to the top of the mountain that you forget about what you have to go through to get there in the first place. There’s blessings in the journey to though! The lessons are the blessings. You want to know what else? The ground was not smooth at any point it got flat and was easier to walk on but was at no point just smooth all the way through.
Why do we think life will be smooth after going through something difficult?! When did we acquire this misconception? Literally and figuratively there will always be something to over come on our walk with Jesus and in life generally. I guess we just believe that struggle equals relief and that isn’t necessarily true.
I have personally learned how to suffer well. It sounds crazy I know but that is what my life’s journey has taught me. I find joy in being more than a conquerer in everything I have and will go through. I know relief will come eventually because God gives me peace in it.
I didn’t used to think that way in the past honestly… this joy and understanding came with time. I used to think, “Why in the world is this happening to me God? What did I do wrong?”. The simple answer is nothing… it just a part of our walk with Christ suffering WILL happen it’s literally a guarantee but it’s different for everyone. Of course I take accountability and repent whenever possible but it isn’t always my fault. That was a false belief I clung to just to make sense of what I would experience. Back to the mountain…
All I could think was, “Wow Jesus walked this distance knowing the whole time the reward at the top was death.” I couldn’t even fathom what He may have felt and my heart sank. In that I was thankful though because He did it anyway. HE DID IT ANYWAY!!! Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice… I found peace and extreme gratitude in it.
Here are some more views from the hike.
Might not have been much to look at but there was much to reflect on and I appreciated every moment.
“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.”
Psalm 121:1-2 ESV